Uncomfortable Growth

She found the growth to be uncomfortable.

She found the movement to wisdom terrifying.

She wondered would it be easier to live on the

surface and  enjoy the simple distractions.

She wondered was it really necessary to go through

so much in order to emerge the beautiful butterfly.

She even wondered…what was the point

in being a beautiful butterfly.

She

even

wondered.

What would life be like without wonder.

butterfly wonder

She Fell Into Silence

Silence

On Fridays and Saturdays

she reached deep for truth of all kinds ~

happy, sad, brave and loving.

On Sundays she shared pictures of the sky.

But she had been silent,

heavy, out of sorts ~ at a loss for words

with no interest in pretty pictures.

You see she had done something brave.

She had faced her biggest fear and

set the ball in motion for HUGE change.

She thought she would feel relieved

and excited

and in a way YES she did

BUT she also felt too much of everything

AND so all she could say was

THIS nothing.

A little bit of quiet FOR just a little while.

Are You Sad?

The question came ~ are you lonely, alone, sad…..or just on a search of being one with yourself, nature, and your children?

She answered quickly without giving it much thought ~ she said “I am seeking, searching and have always been that way.  Sometimes it feels like I have a sad, old, inner soul but it could also be a wild, excited inner child that is scrambling to burst through and find its way out.”

She had always been in dialogue and prayer with nature – since she was very young…….its who she was.

Perhaps the sadness was that it had been stuffed and questioned ~ THAT deep, pondering voice.

Maybe it sounded sad because it touched that part of people’s thinking that they too kept buried deep within.

She found that as long as she could be in her depths she could also be in her light.

She did not ride very comfortably in the middle.

AND SO SHE WAS and So She Would be AMAZED BY her Own Voice