This is the kind of love you should be…. not everyday for nobody is perfect but striving…. always striving to be this lover and take this kind of lover for your own. Love should always liberate❤️
~ Always With Love
Life is moving so fast. I am working hard and doors are opening. In it all I am doing well but stumbling and tripping a lot.
Thankfully some of the moving involves a very wonderful and kind man. I never really believed that would happen for me. I wanted to believe but I was preparing for not and never settling for less than love in between. I was strength and working on self love but scared that this would mean I would be all strong and no softness. It is really awesome to be both. In this way I am very happy.
Things have changed dramatically with the exhusband and kids. Our family has moved forward but that needs to be a separate piece. Three years they say…. to go through the grieving stages of divorce….. yes, I think so and I am glad that I took that time mostly alone. I was not a saint focused on myself, I chased situations, moved in and out of possibilities but I ended up alone in between and that is where I grew. All that pain so worth it.
I am working two jobs now… the main reason for not writing. I have been thinking about my journey to healing and self love AND I have been thinking about all those ups and downs… never settling, walking away, letting things that do not work end where they end. Letting Go Being Love … YES THAT. I have been thinking about self love and how that applies to work and how hard we push ourselves to work. In a way that is why I am writing today… to remember what I love… which is heart felt expression because I want to always be that and I want to always grow and share that growing. I have been unsure what to do with this blog but maybe this is it… let it be about rebirth of so many things but not erasing the past that got me here.
~ Always With Love
I am active, engaged and loving it. Engaged with life, my self and my progress. It is pretty cool to be in this space. I have even shrugged my shoulders at overatures of men. I even walked away from a man who seemed very intriguing. Its not like me… I have always let men be a focus but its not out of bitterness. I am finding my way. Almost too much to tell but I will share when I can.
Maybe letting go being love meant just that at its core. Just be it. Let go and love. Maybe it was a journey to here where I did not need to write about it anymore.
It was a while back that I wrote “in action”. That is where I have been. Big action, physical work action, adjusting work and career AND it is kind of cool. Kind of pushing me forward into a new space. Maybe a space of taking care of me.
And oddly… or not… the one that went away… he is back and we both are new. Its only talking but I feel different than I did however long ago that was. ..maybe 3 months. I feel more capable of love but also more capable of letting it do what its got to do.
Writing so tired… I must sleep… but in my busy action I do miss you all.
~Always With Love